Music and Lyrics

Music totally speaks to me. I know that sounds a little "Cheech and Chong" but it's true!
Sometimes lyrics will stick with me just rolling back and forth in my brain. Usually it's not annoying and it's more like a well spoken friend in my ear.
Talking about all the lyrics that ever have been stuck in my head would be impossible. Seriously. When I'm not thinking about class or whatever we're talking about that day or what I need to do or whatever normal people think about, my brain automatically fills the silence for me with lyrics and tunes. It's kind of cool, but also means moments of true silence are hard to come by.
So Switchfoot- have you heard of them? I talked about them here.
Their song "This is Your Life" says the line
This is your life/are you who you want to be?
These simple words always catch in my brain. This is my life. Am I who I want to be?
Not "do others want to be me?", not "do others think this is okay?". No. Unless you want to be one of those people who cares about what others think. I am and it stinks. I would love to tell you I don't care at all how others see me, but I absolutely do. When I walk through the student center, I'm constantly thinking about the looks people are giving me, how my body is positioned, what the shirt i'm wearing says about me, if there's something on my face....
Remember that busy thought life thing I talked about?
Exactly.
Who do you want to be? Why aren't you who ever that is?
What's stopping you? Fear of what people will think of you because it's so different than the person you are now?
Would you be more fulfilled if you were who you wanted to be and had to find new people to hang out with or would you be more fulfilled if you remained as you are with people who accept you?
Someone out there will always be your friend. Really. You've just got to find someone as weird as you are.
Hey, I'm pretty weird. It's more fun than trying to pretend I fit into normal. People laugh at my quirks and typically find them endearing if they don't happen to share them.
Someone else out there eats Sour Patch Kids in even numbers. Someone else out there follows the L and R on head phones. Someone else out there knows every word to Ice Ice Baby. Someone else out there wants to dye their hair purple. Guaranteed.