The Future is Becoming Clear (Kinda)

I'm not a big country fan, but this song keeps coming back.
"Dancing Shoes" by Green River Ordinance
It's slow and relaxed and paints a nice picture. A husband and wife sitting on their porch just being there for one another instead of worrying about the future and, of course, going dancing.
I don't dance well/at all in any way that's considered reasonable by society. It's a joke.
That being said, it's kind of a nice idea to just dance around in your living room.

In my math class, we had a "start your project" day which was very relaxing and a wonderful way to start the day. For this project, we are researching houses and interest rates and all that. I started looking at houses in California and ended up looking at houses on lakes in Wisconsin (my mother's dream!) and pretty much falling in love with these gorgeous properties. I also showed my teacher the $2,499,000 property that's for sale less than half a mile from my high school. Yeah.

Anyway, all of this is to say that God has been present in a very real way in my brain recently. I don't mean visions as much as reassurances and these internal guarantees that things will work out. My work load has been light this week which has given me lots of time to think. I have a peace about my future that's different than I've ever had. Although I still have not declared a major, things are so narrow now it feels like I should just pick one. Also, did you know how easy it is to pick one? You just fill out a form and BAM you're declared. Not to over dramatize, but that's your future right there. Probably. Hopefully. This makes picking a college seem like a cakewalk! What was I talking about "that decides my future"? No. This does.

It's looking like counseling or business administration, if that's even a thing here. I should probably check. Choosing counseling is scary because it pretty much guarantees graduate school. Picking that means all that money and time on top of the next three years and it's scary to pick that if I'm not 100% sure. It sort of feels like God is saying "You need to trust me," and that I should go into counseling even though I know it means all those extra years of schooling. Business administration or like basic business is fine too, but do I really want to work in corporate America forever?

I do not have those kinds of answers. This peace from God that I received this week was more like "You know what, Bethany, everything is going to be okay. I've got this all planned and it's been planned since before you were born."That kind of peace can't exist without Him.

*Woo- I went from calm and loving on a country song to all jacked up and nervous but loving in God. This is the strange playground known as my brain.