It's Friday, Fried Egg

Hey blog readers. I know what you are thinking.
"That girl never updates her blog. She shouldn't even have one! This is lame!"
Not so.
I constantly blog in my head.


As I write this post down, I'm trying to recall all the mental notes I jotted but some of them escape me. Hence why this blog is sometimes scarce and sometimes ramble-y. Right now, there's a piano tuner doing his thing in the corner which makes it very tough to concentrate.


We did arts and crafty stuff today like making name cards for the counselors, making name plates for our job sheet in the kitchen, and covering mini composition notebooks that our leaders bought us.


Today, I was feeling pretty down. Like this "Oh man. I can't do this. I want to go back to my room and cry and maybe yell a little. I stink at these jobs and I can't do them right." But then, I ate lunch and most of those feelings went away. I don't know why it comes on so suddenly but it's a nasty mix of defeated, tired, and sassy. It's unpleasant and not cool.


Yesterday, we went to town which means a mall, target, goodwill, etc. I got a very comfortable and great shirt there and I did take a photo of it with the camera in my computer, but for the life of me I can't figure out where they go! I got to talk with both of my parents which was great. I missed hearing their voices more than I thought I did. I slept on the way there, chatted on the way back. We got back around 9 but curfew was at 10:30. I went straight to bed when we got back and loved it! So I thought I was rested today, but I guess not (see previous paragraph).


I have been reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan. Have you read this book? I like it so far! I started it a long time ago but never finished it, so I started again. He references Scripture a lot, so I like to have my Bible with me when I read it so I can look at the verses in my version. I read the New Living Translation and I think he is mostly looking at New International Version. Here are a few things that struck me:


Matthew 10:28 says "Don't be afraid of those who want to kill you. They can only kill your body; they cannot touch your soul. Fear only God, who can destroy both body and soul." I think that's pretty cool! People who hate or kill cannot affect your soul. If you are a Christian, you means your soul, not your earthly body on which earthly culture puts so much emphasis. Of course, our bodies are temples and we should take care of them. But we should have a greater concern for the health of our souls than our bodies because that's what God cares about and what He will look at.
AND I wasn't going to say this because I can't remember the guy's name, but we watched a video in the chapel and this man was saying that our bodies are basically rental properties so we should care for them but they're not permanent so don't freak out (I'm paraphrasing). This guy also said that of course God won't look at you on Judgement Day. If He did, we would all be dead! He looks at us through the blood of Christ and it covers us so we can be spared. I've never thought about it like that before but I thought it was worth sharing.
Colossians 3:2-4 says "Let heaven fill your thoughts. Do not think only of things down here on earth. For you died when Christ died, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God. And when Christ, who is your real life, is revealed to the whole world, you will share in all his glory." I think that's pretty cool too!  Getting to share in God's glory definitely sounds cool and I like that this is not my whole life. Sometimes I have wondered about non-Christians and if they ever think "Is this all?" because the underlying fact in my mind that there is more is amazingly comforting. If I thought this life was it, I would do everything, and probably end up dying in the process. Trying to do what you can on Earth while you can is important but I know that there is more after earthly death. I don't know how differently I would see the world if I didn't have that underlying knowledge.


I can't wait until it is warmer here. I hope it gets insanely hot so I don't have to wear these same jeans over and over. I have 3 pair + the ones I bought in town, but two have such big holes in them, they do not keep me warm. They are for work and getting dirty and throwing away.
I hate feeling inept. I don't know how to do everything. I'm trying to jump in but I always land awkwardly. I don't know where stuff is, what all the rules are, what every step of the cleaning process is, the fastest way to do stuff. I know I need to ask for help. But guess what, everybody else has big jobs to do too. I want to be the helper, not the helped. I don't like not knowing the answers. The incompetency comes in waves. I don't like asking stupid questions. I want to have the routine down.


Well that was a downer of a note to end on. Sorry about that. It's really not so bad! It's just that someone asked me a question that I didn't know the answer to while I was typing. This is going to be an awkward ending but that's the way it goes sometimes!


PS, if you didn't get the title, look up "Friday by Rebecca Black" on youtube. It seriously sounds like she is saying Fried Egg. The girls want to sing it today in the dish room since it is actually Friday.